ive realized,
there are sooooooo many girls who act fake.


its not cute, its not attractive, its repulsive...

they either have fake tans, fake hair, fake boobs, or fake attitudes.
its disgusting, and some how they always get guys quicker, just with looks.


but, im glad that there are some people out there that see fake,
and they go for people who act different and are unique.




im sorry but for as long as i live,
i will never act like someone im not.
im not gonna change anything i like to fit in.
no way, ive made that mistake before,
and im definitely not gonna do it again.


im gonna listen to my country music,
dress the way i want to dress,
be friends with who I want to be friends with,
and do stuff that is outrageously different, and FUN. (:



just thought id let everyone know (:

i really dont know where to start with this.

im in love with you, thats a fact. trust with you though is far off. its okay, you can blame it on all the other guys in the past who have ruined me for you. stupid sons of bitches. im scared to give my heart all out because everytime i do for some reason it gets torn to shreads and thrown back at me. and then im left to climb back up to the top. with you im at the top, and i wanna stay at the top. i dont wanna fight with you, it kills me. i just want you to be upfront about things. youre one of the greatest things to ever happen to me and i dont wanna lose you to one of my stupid rages. i wanna be yours forever and i cant picture any other girl taking my place. i want you to me. im probably way to controlling and maybe thats why you hide stuff from me? i dont know, i miss you every minute im not with you. i want you here now, as a matter of fact. youve made me so happy these past months and i dont wanna give it up. everything weve been through together has to have some reason behind it. i mean, i dunno. maybe all this is me. i dunno. known of this makes sense, ive just gotta let it out. youre my everything, im in love for the first time and i dont wanna be in love with anyone but you. youre amazing, actually beyond amazing youre extraordinary. <3 im crying because i dont wanna fight anymore. i dont care. i wanna love you, i wanna be with you, i wanna stay in your arms for ever. dont let me stop any of your dreams though, because im sure id find a way to. im way to controlling and obsessed. you say im not, but im almost sure i am...


i dont want you to cry, its gonna be okay. i just think i should give you a break for a day or two. you know, for you to see what life without me around is like. who knows, maybe youll like it more and ill learn to not give any part of your heart away even if its all lust. if you do leave me, i just want you to know youve made an impact on me, and no one has ever been this great to me in my whole life. ill never ever forget you as long as i live, and maybe we can work this stuff out right? but please just give me time and let me flow through this, i need my space. im still always yours <3 and youll always be mine in my heart.